This is a small booklet I wrote while going through a very hard time locked in the Hole;
segregation, no windows, no one to talk to, and no books to read--only a Bible. No
friends, no penpal--only verbal abuse, fear of trial, loss of family and friends. 2003
Can you feel the pressure of the cell? Is it giving you a headache?
Is it hard for you to sleep? Are you anxious? Are you angry?
Have you been having regrets? Have you decided your life isn’t
worth living? These are all beginning levels of sorting out your life.
Right now you may feel alone or abandoned — these are all beginning
stages to comfort, yes, comfort. As you become aware of your
solitude, you will begin to feel impatient, your thoughts will be evil, your
mouth will begin to vomit out words that are full of hatred towards those
who you may have had bad run-ins or conversations with. This is an
aspect of withdrawal. Remember your eyes and ears and your mouth
are the way for nourishing yourself and spirit, so whatever you’ve been
in contact with is gonna be what you are affected by.
…Also your mind
adds on imaginations and these things may become a reality to you. The
world is full of noises and disruptions and confusions; there is no order
in the world… These are only temporary, although you must accept your
discomforts for what they are, they are discomforts — nothing more, so
don’t let your mind tell you anything more. As a matter of fact, it’s time
you let Solitude work in your life. That’s why you must embrace solitude.
While in these times of solitude a man can be purified and
cleansed of those ideas by receiving Jesus and allowing Jesus’ words
to take over, for Jesus’ words and life become YOUR words and your
way of living. While alone in time — facing self and dealing with God
on a one-on-one basis, all things begin to open up through the Revelation
and Revealings of Him who shows us all things in the spirit.
A man’s mind must be recreated, or should I say “born
again”. The world’s order will always change, but Jesus is the same
now and forever. You reach a deep peace that only Jesus can
give. This peace is not of the world, and this peace the world cannot
take away. So in these times of solitude … all the might and victory
is given to Jesus at every second and every minute, and every
hour in everything that is … the whole earth is filled with his glory!
